let it rain

it’s not too often that i catch colds. i guess that’s why this one has knocked me on my ass so hard. the combination of sickness, the overwhelming foggy high that i get from taking cold medication, and the usual bunk side effects from the MS drugs that i take - have left me in a state of zombie-ness.

this week, as a zombie, i got lots of knitting done, didn’t eat much, bathed more frequently than would be recommended to maintain healthy skin and hair, got in a couple arguments, finished a couple books, and made a number of late night phone calls.

one of the many important things that i realized as i moped around the house this week - is that somewhere along the road i have lost most of my connection/ commitment to playing outside. going for hikes, camping trips, mountain biking excursions, canoe day-trips, outdoor swimming, surfing, visits to cabins on lakes - these things used to be part of my life. they were also part of how i related to other people - and it should be noted that i often made friends with people who were much more outdoor savvy than i am (which i suppose is not all that hard to do).

the notion that there is ‘nothing to do’ simply because one does not have enough money to go to the bar, go to a music gig, go and buy food, etc. has quickly become part of my mentality. and this week i decided that i am tired of living this way - and relating with my friends this way.

last week i went over to a buddy’s house and we just went out for a walk (in the middle of an urban neighborhood albeit) - but it was just so simple and perfect. we talked. we felt the air changing from winter to spring. we felt the crunch of frosty grass under our shoes. we worked up a bit of a sweat.

outdoor fun is here.